A year without children

The moment I lost the world is the day I left my husband on aug 201inAug I return to San antonio to Antonio. No not married but a house for my family in my own land. I wanted is for that friendship again to be able to not feel alone anymore. Years have gone by and I've lost more than I gain I'm starting to feel like a failure to my family. My failed marriages are more of a statement than my thanks in my career or parenting. Now I feel the pain you tried to explain to me when ur body hurt so much. I don't know how u handle all those years suffering of and waiting for your Hope.

I feel so mad at the world for not helping you get better but understand things happen for a reason. I hold my name proud 🥲 as you did when everyone told u the Whittier the better. That I sing our songs and just keep Hope alive like we both did when we played together.

We were going to be big stars like we practice so hard and even got good even though if someone would just look at us we would get found by a big company. I still tell everyone of our moments together to keep your Hope alive.

I fear I will forget your face and laugh just like I don't remember your name. I hate that about myself, Alex, that,t I'm forgetting even my own children's scary to think I will once be gone that it's breaking me apart.

But I remember your call that day I last hear from you. Even tho you sound like you had been crying for days. I could hear the smile 😊 through your words.

"It's never goodbye Libby, it's I'll see you later"

And I hold it strong in my heart forever. Because you are right Alex! And I will always smile 😊 for the children like you who wanted Hope in a scary place. Even you said pray is for others who really because we can handle our situation.

It's harder without my Core of Hope but I hope for Corey at my side. However, I'm happy with what Hope has to give me. And that's the Cure for my depression is to evolve.

Thank you

Ketch^

Always n forever