The Golden Dawn

I had a dream that it was snowing and I was married with twins at my side (boy n girl). I saw us get into a taxi leaving our apartment downtown & we were all smiling and holding hands. I can say I had this dream when I was only in middle school when I first start to have a hard time understanding or even getting my point across without hurting someone's feelings. It seems to be my thing to be a very rude person without thinking about it and I still feel it's pointless to sugarcoat anything.

My dream inspires me to aim for a Family so I started to work towards it at the age of 16 when I meet my high school sweetheart who didn't full fill my one wish. However, He did give me my beautiful twins and the chance to be his kinda wife in our first apartment.

My Dream seem to change as my life keep going on because once we were in a ruff spot & I started to fall out of love then I meet a friend on PSN who I named Paul McCartney and He give me my lil demi but we didn't get to have the big day I always dream of which made me start to feel very ugly.

when I finally went back to my hometown after only having my twins no lil demi, I grow into a dark mood until I saw a light with ALLTIME.

Alltime (Corey) told me something I had never heard before only with my wifey.... he told me he proved of me when we just only meet & it pushes me to want to speak up more about WHAT happened to my family but will it even make a difference... I HOPE...

We built Alltimehope with the idea of having our church help others see it's not the end of the world but a GOLDEN DAWN for Famillia (including a lucky)

My family may be not married but in our mind, we believe we are to the children when we tell our stories to try to encourage them to follow the Right path (from common sense) & the book my beloved husband carried in his years in prison.

this book has given me my Light to OUR GOAL even after his death on May 15, 2020, & we married holding hands alone without anyone proud of us on 4.20.2020 after 2 miscarriages which hurt him the most. He started to give up right after the death of his grandmother & is not able to bring the children home after covid broke us apart. However, I push & fought to show him why should we let them win so we work on the yard together learning all we can & build our friendship or we thought cuz you can't run away from demons forever in these dark times.

I couldn't keep a smile on any longer without my children to help mellow his mind of doubt so yes I walk away & don't regret it cuz that's when I went into remission of my MS.

I settle the children (twins) with their father, kiss my demi head telling him to keep prayer alive with his grandmother & pa while I search for my best friend. My best friend Corey was gone in the darkness for so long that we didn't know each other anymore & it scared him he would never find his way home until he saw demi knock on my door to visit me with the twins but it was too late for me.

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The golden dawn is a message of peace if you aren't aware & Mr.Osbourne sang with the sabbat in black but I as queen will Sing it in White & Rose to the children. We must remember how easy history respects & I will fight if they hang our lord's son as they try with my past.

So I will carry my sins & smile like a dumbass to keep innocent growing inside the children's minds & bodies to end the sickness as Corey taught me when I couldn't stop thinking about sex. I learn to love & build my lust for the night when we finally lay in bed together holding each other in amazement we got pasted another day for the children to hopefully have our own.

So even after his passing I still prayed & maybe well I hope I found him in someone who loves me for I am in my own world & it keeps me alive for the message.

all you need is love