Stop being sad already

Today I'm at an gig in the Carter stadium and I am depress. I can feel mother telling me to put up my head before the tears start rolling. Things are pushing me when I know it's all my fault. I'm only making enough to get my things out of the pawn shop.

I think what makes me want to end my life more is how everyone seems happier when I'm not around...

Maybe it's all in my head and I just need to relax and enjoy I got this gig and more to come because I will not give up.

It's hard it really is to not want to kill myself and allow my family to have peace without me.

Well it hurts 😭 and I'm sad, nothing is making me feel relax but smoking flower however as broke as I am I have to wait and pray it doesn't get worst.

Why would anyone care but me anyway